Two rows back ...
It's just a shawl. I've made many shawls. This is just one more. I'm not intimidated.
I can make a shawl in 17 days, I've done it and I'm comfortable with it. Nothing is too lacy or too complicated, just a little time consuming. So what's the problem?
Beads. Lining them up is an issue because when they don't line up it's like 'in your face you made a mistake. Now go back and fix it.' Undo, undo, undo, etc. 'Now make sure you stab yourself with the beading needle as often as possible - teach you a lesson.'
Yeah, the shawl is cute and everything:
But clearly it wants to hurt me.
I'm on row 30 or 34 on the chart, then no more beads until the very end, I think.
I may virtually win gold if I finish on time, but I will literally win gold when I can hold a pencil without pain.